Vermeer Ha

The Bureaucracy of Survival

I tried to die, but America kept me on hold.

Oct 12 • 

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Notes From a Taper

Morning dread feels like personality, not withdrawal.

Oct 5 • 

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Dew Chemistry Narrated.

Good To Listen If You Can't Sleep. Also, if I mispronounce things, please forgive me.

Oct 4 • 

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5:29

September 2025

Five More Minutes

Sometimes a dream gives you something worse than a nightmare — a reunion.

Sep 30 • 

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Dew Chemistry

The air smells different before dawn. I get up to notice it.

Sep 26 • 

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The Ethics of Writing About The People You Love (and Hurt)

On the morality and consequences of turning private lives into public text. Also, sorry the last email had a weird formatting thing. Read this one!

Sep 1 • 

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August 2025

AUDIO: All Mother Stories Become Grief Stories Eventually

The Ache of Unspoken Love.

Aug 28 • 

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9:25

Mortal Chains

Don't worry y'all, this one isn't sad I promise!

Aug 6 • 

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July 2025

Bless This Mess

fluids. frequencies. fever.

Jul 17 • 

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Give Me Your Cigarette, Pt. 1

A study in power play, denial, and the erotic guilt of being terrible.

Jul 1 • 

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June 2025

All Mother Stories Become Grief Stories Eventually

Hi, Five years ago, I wrote a Quora post about the nuances of loving my narcissistic father.

Jun 12 • 

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April 2025

What To Wear In The Liminal Space Of Grief

Everything fell apart. And still, we tried to make something beautiful.

Apr 29 • 

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